My Latest Find: Pon and Zi

A few weeks ago I went browsing on Youtube for one of Usher's songs. I found the song that I was looking for but the video was not of him. It was of these two cute characters - Pon and Zi. What struck me most were the statements they made. At my state that time, I could really relate to what these characters were saying. They just seem to express what I was feeling too, all my confusion, all my hurts.. Take a look at these pictures and maybe you'll understand...

Poem at 4:35

What Hurts Most

Thought what we had was a beginning
Not the beginning of the end
On the verge of discovering new feelings
Good things seemed to be growing
Suddenly reality comes crashing in
Everything coming all at once causing pain
Should have know it was wrong from the start
And I should never have let you inside my heart
Now all I feel is regret and pain
From promises you made in vain
What hurts the most, I believed everything you said
Too late to find out you were playing with my head
Because of you I again believed in fairy tales
And happy endings

In chocolates, roses, and pink-flowered dreams;
But now, all hopes are again dashed to pieces
All that’s left is me to deal with the brokenness;
On the outside people see me laugh and smile
But deep inside is a pain I cannot hide
Despite all that I will not let you see me cry
Maybe this is the end and I will say my goodbye…

Poem at 3:51

Sometimes things happen and we can't find the reason why they happened they way they did. Irrational, unexplianable, and just too big for words...Feelings overflow and we just have to find release anyway we can.


Because I Wanted To Believe

There’s no one to blame but myself
I guess I wanted badly to believe
Again too blind to see
That you were just fooling me
Your sweet tongue whispered
Things that my heart longed after
Thought there was sincerity in your eyes
Too late to realize they were cold as ice
You saw and played my weakness
Too believing that I did not notice
You were just entertaining yourself at my expense
Toying with my feelings

There’s no one to blame but myself
I guess I just wanted badly to believe
That someone is genuine enough to care
Right now the hurt seems too much to bear
There’s no one to blame but myself
I guess I wanted badly to believe
There’s no one to blame but myself
Because I let myself believe…

When will I ever learn?
Happy endings don’t happen though we yearn
Love is just a wisp of thin air
An idea imagined, untrue, and unfair
I guess in it I just really wanted to believe
There’s no one to blame but myself
Because I let myself believe…

iPods: Great Gift Ideas

I’m the type of person who cannot go without hearing music the entire day. Without music my life just seems incomplete. The day always seem brighter and problems lighter if I hear my favourite music. But, I usually have to wait to get home in order to listen to my music because all my music files are in my laptop. It’s just unfortunate that I don’t have a portable mp3 player right now. But, I’m dying to have one soon. With an mp3 player I can listen to all my music anytime, anywhere. What do you think would be the best choice for an mp3 player? Hmm, I read on the net that there is a new version of the iPod Nano, a slimmer and more dynamic version! I’d sure love to have that one.

Anyway, Christmas is just around the corner so, an iPod Nano would be a great gift for myself. For those of you who don’t have any gift ideas yet, you can welcome the idea of giving an iPod to your most favoured loved one. If that particular someone is not very keen on music, you can always go for an iPod Touch. Well, that’s only if you are feeling generous!

Giving this kind of gifts need not be daunting. Of course you have to do your research first before you actually buy any of them. There are helpful sites that provide price comparison for these kinds of items. To make things easy for you just be sure to find a price comparison site that gives reliable service for price comparisons of iPods. Just keep in mind, you can find all of them online.

Look Up

Have you noticed the skies lately? Probably not. You are one of those busy persons who only have time for work. If you haven’t looked up the skies, find time to do so. Maybe this time you’ll see some changes...that it’s different from the last time you looked up…

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Try sniffing the air…do you notice something different about it? Well, I do! It’s almost Christmas! Which means, gift giving. It’s barely three weeks before the most awaited day of the year. I’m sure plenty of you are excited. But let me ask you something, have you shopped for the gift you’re going to give your mom, dad, siblings, son, and daughter? Oh and don’t forget the countless nieces and nephews that you have. They are going to be greatly disappointed if you don’t give them anything this Christmas. Finding toys for the little ones is not difficult at all. But, if you’re looking for toys for the big boys, well, that’s another matter entirely.

ShopWiki can help you in this area. This site brings you shopping convenience unlike any other. This site gathers results of all stores that carry the item you are searching for. And if you want to give a unique gift for him this Christmas a suggestion is a car dvd player. It’s unique don’t you think? I bet, of all gifts he would never think it would be that one you’ll give him. Car dvd players would be a very welcome surprise I’m sure. A car dvd player is a good idea because once it’s installed in the car it will keep the occupants entertained. You should know that being cooped up inside the car can become boring after a while so, keep boredom at bay with a car dvd player.

The fun at ShopWiki doesn’t end there. Aside from dvd players, this site can also bring you results for a new iPod or other MP3 players. Just remember, Christmas shopping need not be a hassle. Make it fun with ShopWiki!

Poem at 6:43

Poem at 6:43

Just when the sunshine through the clouds seemed to be peeking
The sky filling with glorious silver lining
Thick, dark clouds suddenly over spread the skies
It won’t be long before rain drops fall like tears in my eyes
It’s been said over and over again
Nothing remains the same that no one can complain
Life is not and never will be a fairy tale
Only in books do Prince Charmings never fail
Fairy tales make happy endings come true
Real life just makes relationships fall through;
In happy endings I have to stop believing
Maybe only then will the heart stop aching
And tears will stop from endlessly falling…

Photoshop-ing!

During the weekend , Og, taught me the basics of Photoshop. I found the whole picture editing thing quite interesting. I can foresee the most of my freetime will go to this new object of interest. Here are some products of our efforts...

This first photo was done by him. I like the combination colors in this one. Pink looks really sweet. I like the whole pic!:)

Now this one was done by him as well, with bits of input from me hehe...
This is just the same photo as above. We only added my name at the bottom...

After the tutorial I was ready to try on my own. Here's the result. I know it's not that good yet but, it's a start!

I hope to do more Photoshop-ing in the coming days. What fun!:)

Good Read: Two Frogs

I've been reading a lot of inspirational stories lately. For what purpose? Well, I just want to be inspired. All of us could use some inspiration once in a while right? What am I saying? Better make that always.

Anyway, here is an inspirational story that I hope you'd get time to read.

Two frogs

A group of frogs were traveling through the woods, and two of them fell into a deep pit. When the other frogs saw how deep the pit was, they told the two frogs that they were as good as dead. The two frogs ignored the comments and tried to jump up out of the pit with all their might. The other frogs kept telling them to stop, that they were as good as dead. Finally, one of the frogs took heed to what the other frogs were saying and gave up. He fell down and died.

The other frog continued to jump as hard as he could. Once again, the crowd of frogs yelled at him to stop the pain and just die. He jumped even harder and finally made it out. When he got out, the other frogs said, "Did you not hear us?" The frog explained to them that he was deaf. He thought they were encouraging him the entire time.

This story teaches two lessons:1. There is power of life and death in the tongue. An encouraging word to someone who is down can lift them up and help them make it through the day.2. A destructive word to someone who is down can be what it takes to kill them.

Be careful of what you say. Speak life to those who cross your path. The power of words... it is sometimes hard to understand that an encouraging word can go such a long way. Anyone can speak words that tend to rob another of the spirit to continue in difficult times. Special is the individual who will take the time to encourage another.

Story taken from: Indian Child

Verses to Remind Us

HANDY LITTLE CHART - GOD HAS A POSITIVE ANSWER:

YOU SAY - GOD SAYS - BIBLE VERSES

You say: 'It's impossible' - God says: All things are possible -(Luke 18:27)
You say: 'I'm too tired' - God says: I will give you rest -(Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: 'Nobody really loves me' - God says: I love you -(John 3:1 6 & John 3:34 )
You say: 'I can't go on' - God says: My grace is sufficient -(II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
You say: 'I can't figure things out' -God says: I will direct your steps -(Proverbs 3:5- 6)
You say: 'I can't do it' -God says: You can do all things -(Philippians 4:13)
You say: 'I'm not able' -God says: I am able -(II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: 'It's not worth it' -God says: It will be worth it -(Roman 8:28 )
You say: 'I can't forgive myself' -God says: I Forgive you -(I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: 'I can't manage' -God says: I will supply all your needs -(Philippians 4:19)
You say: 'I'm afraid' -God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear -(II Timothy 1:7)
You say: 'I'm always worried and frustrated' -God says: Cast all your cares on ME -(I Peter 5:7)
You say: 'I'm not smart enough' -God says: I give you wisdom -(I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: 'I feel all alone' -God says: I will never leave you or forsake you -(Hebrews 13:5)

Something Nice to Read

I have another inspirational piece that I'd like to share. This one is also from another Bluemountain poster that I have at home. Yup, you can guess it right. It is also one of those things I bought back in college. I have it hanging on the side of my cabinet. I encoded the content and put new background. I'm not so sure if the background's good though, and if the words are still readable.

Here it is. Hope you find it a good read.

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In this site you will find a variety of credit card reviews that will help you decide as to what choice of credit suits you. If you only have a fair credit, the suitable card for you is the Credit Cards for Fair Credit. This can help you improve your credit reputation until such time that you restore your good credit. Restoring good credit with fair credit credit cards can take some work. One most important thing though, you need to pay on time. Some rewards program is also offered if you have Credit Cards for Fair Credit. These are only some of the helpful information provided by creditcardflyers.com. If you need to know more about them, don’t hesitate to pay them a visit.

A Precious Book Mark

If you read my previous blogs I wrote there that I rummaged through my things and found some mementos that had sentimental value to me. I also found a Bluemountain bookmark that I bought when i was just in college. Do you know, I've forgotten already that I used to collect bookmarks? Yeah I do collect them. I have several of them at home. I particularly like bookmarks with nice quotes or poems written on them. This particular Bluemountain bookmark I found among my things is really nice. I wanted to share it with my friends that is why I encoded it in word then added a nice background. The background I used here is a picture of a view taken in Tagaytay.

If you read this, I hope you like it too. ;-)

Vision Correction Through LASIK

I have been wearing eye glasses since I was in my second year in High School. I had my eyes checked because I had blurred vision and kept having headaches. According to the ophthalmologist that tested me, there was a muscle in my eyes that did not develop. In short, the only thing to do was to wear eye glasses, unless I had the money for laser surgery. Laser surgery was not an option then, but it can be now. The LASIK information I’ve read makes me think that laser eye correction is now one of the best options for bringing back 20/20 vision. Maybe this can be a viable option for me as well.

Developers of LASIK made things even better with the new iLASIK. Are you aware of this iLASIK Procedure? Well, this is the modern version of the LASIK corrective vision procedure. iLASIK has been proven by the Department of Defense and NASA confirmed that the LASIK technology used today is safe and very effective. The modern iLASIK is different from the LASIK because the former uses two lasers in correcting eye defects. The first laser maps out the eyes and makes an incision in the cornea. Once the corneal flap is already created, another wave-front mapping data directs the second laser. This second laser is the one that corrects the vision.

Many people have already benefited from LASIK technology. In fact those that are in the military have had their 20/20 vision restored through it. The benefits of this technology just keeps spreading by word of mouth as naval aviators tell their peers of the great advantage the iLASIK procedure has given them. How I envy their 20/20 vision! I’ve always had qualms about eye corrections through laser, but if it’s iLASIK I think I’ll feel secure.

Staring Right At You

I've always been amazed by foreigners' eyes. When I was a child I used to wish I had gray eyes. Gray and green-colored eyes fascinate me a lot. And I was also influenced by the paperbacks I read back then. The ones authored by Barbra Cartland had great descriptions about gray and green eyes. Her descriptions of the heroine's eyes just make them come alive, that you can almost see them staring right back at you.

That was then, and I'm all grown now. However, my fascination for colored eyes hasn't left me. I think I'd look so much better if I had gray or green eyes. Colored contact lenses would make that possible. When I came back home a few weeks ago I purchased a new pair of contact lenses. But, instead of going for green or gray, I opted for hazel, or brown if you will. That time I bought it, the only colors available were gray and hazel. I tried on both and the lady assisting me said both colors look good on me. But the gray one looked obviosuly fake and the hazel looked natural so, I bought the latter. Maybe next time I'll buy the gray one. Anyway, the contacts I bought make my eyes look more alive that's why I like it too.

Here's a picture of my hazel-colored eyes...

Yes, I'm staring right at you...

What can you say?

Just A Recap

I was able to go home on the last weekend of September. After work that Friday, I immediately proceeded to Cubao where my friend, Mandy, was waiting for me. I decided to just take the ordinary bus for my trip. It was my first time to take the ordinary bus so, I asked my friend to help me choose which one would be most secure. We had a hard time choosing because most of the seats at the front were already occupied. I definitely did not want to sit at the back, not only is it uncomfortable, it's also not safe since most of the people sitting there were males. Finally, we settled on the Elavil bus. It's a good thing too because my seat mate was a female. It was hard to sleep during the trip, but I was also able to nap every now and then. I noticed that ordinary buses had so many stopovers, but despite that we were able to reach Guinobatan pretty early.

It felt good to be home. I missed our house, my room, my bed. And it was good to see my Ma, my siblings and their families. I planned on taking them out for lunch in Legazpi on Sunday, but my Ma said it would just be better if we buy stuff and cook them at home. So, that's what we did. We ate outside the house during lunch, under the Bignay tree with fresh air around us. Too bad I did not take pictures of that day...

During my visit there I had some time to rummage through my things, throw out what I did n't need anymore and kept those that had so much sentimental value to me. I tried looking for the notebook that contained poetry pieces but I couldn't find it. Then I remembered, I lent it to my neice, Apol. I just texted her and told her to make she does't lose it.

Time flew so fast, ad then it was again time to come back here in Manila. I took the plane. By the way, it was my first plane ride. Since it was my first time to ride in the skies, I took pictures of the clouds that were close enough to touch. It's wonderful to be up there, looking down on all creation. But not all sights were good to eyes. When we were near Manila already, the view changed. Instead of green meadows, all I could see were buildings stuck so close together...

Here are some pictures of my plane ride and other views from the top.

Time in Laguna and Cavite

When I came here in Manila to look for work, I met up with my best friend Alpha. When she heard that I was in the city she invited me to stay with her one weekend and so I did. She works in a bank in Makati. I had an interview in the Makati area that Friday and after that I looked for the bank where she worked and just waited outside for her. I waited and waited outside until 6 o'clock because she still had to finish up some work. Anyway, I went with her and spent the weekend in their place in Laguna.

We took the van from Makati to Laguna. The whole trip took an hour I think. When we reached their house we already famished so we ate. Spent some time chatting with her siblings the it was off to sleep. That Saturday our route was Cavite where we went to church at the Adventist University of the Philippines (AUP). It was there that once again I got to eat delicious vegetarian food. I guess I shouldn't forget to mention that we had our lunch for free since the cafeteria doesn't take payment during saturday. The students who eat there have their accounts in the caf. We went home around 5 o'clock in the afternoon because we also attended the afternoon service.

AUP is a very nice place. The air is so fresh and cool. They also have some very nice landscaping there too.

This is the church where we attended service that saturday.

This picture was taken near the church when we went walking around after lunch.

This one was a cute nook there. You can see a river below.

On Being Strong

I've been here in Manila for almost one month already. So far I'm getting the hang of living alone, away from my family. I feel that being independent is making me stronger, no not physically but psychologically and emotionally. I guess that is just natural since I have nobody to depend on but myself. Well that is what I'dike to think. And I like to think that there's already some difference in me, inside. It is also in my mind that there's no room to be afraid in this place where there's nobody to depend on. I have to be strong because there's only me to protect and comfort myself when all the doubts come flooding in.

How about you? Have you felt something like this before?


Image is courtesy of Pravsworld.

First Days

Well,for those of you got to read my sentimenatl notes down there, hope you didn't get bored...It was just one of those times that I needed to get off some steam. Anyway, I'm feeling so much better now. It's a new environment and a new routine for me here in Manila. Yesterday was my first day at the office. When I first came here, I was told that I would report to the ofice on the 16th of September, but then there was a change and was asked to report sooner, so here I am.

This is the first time that I will be living alone so it really is going to be a challenge for me. I do hope I can cope on my own. All my life I lived with my family and I have never really experienced what it's like to be really away from them, to be responsible for everything. Though I have also gone on vacations away from home, there is always this feeling of security that I will be going back home. So this time it's going to be so much different. I can only go home occasionally since it won't be financially practical for me to go back home regularly.

But this is a start and I do hope I can make it on my own here in the urban jungle...

Let's Converse for a Minute

Trying to Find Myself

Sometimes it feels like i don't know myself anymore. Things around me just dont seem to be the way they used to be as well. It's really ahrd when you've become so out of touch with your innerself, that by the time you look inside you hardly recognize her...I've been battling with this feeling for sometime now because when i looked back in the past year, i don't know where the girl has gone...They say that when you arrived at this point in your life one of the best things to do is to distance yourself from all things familiar, and that is what i'm doing right now, if only for a few days. Here i am venturing out into the world that frightens me so much. Far away from my "confort zone" as what my former officemate says in her blog. Frankly, I'm not sure what i want to accomplish by coming here, i guess i just want to be away from my family and my loved ones even for a while, give myself some breathing space...and find myself. And by being far away, i hope for that one person to realize my importance in his life, want him to decide just what really is my place in hislife. Just maybe, by being far i can learn to live without him, the way he seems to be doing so easily where he is right now. I want to be free from pain, I just want to be HAPPY, truly HAPPY for a change. How i wish it wasn't so hard...

Need Some Inspiration

I'm feeling low again today. Thoughts just keep tumbling in my head. My friend told me that when she was feeling this way she reads inspiring stories...I used to do this too. I'm not sure when I quit the habit. Anyway, what she said served as a reminder for me. A few minutes ago I browsed around for some inspiring stories to uplift my mood.

Here's what I found from Inspirationalstories.com. What really struck me most was what the author said at the end of the story. You have to ready this story from top to bottom in order to understand...

Trees That Wood
by: Author Unknown, Source Unknown

Once there were three trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the first tree said, "Someday I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems. I could be decorated with intricate carving and everyone would see the beauty."

Then the second tree said, "Someday I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of the world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull."

Finally the third tree said, "I want to grow to be the tallest and straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time and people will always remember me."

After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees. When one came to the first tree he said, "This looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter" ... and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest.

At the second tree a woodsman said, "This looks like a strong tree, I should be able to sell it to the shipyard." The second tree was happy because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship.

When the woodsmen came upon the third tree, the tree was frightened because he knew that if they cut him down his dreams would not come true. One of the woodsmen said, "I don't need anything special from my tree so I'll take this one", and he cut it down.

When the first tree arrived at the carpenters, he was made into a feed box for animals. He was then placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for. The second tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end. The third tree was cut into large pieces and left alone in the dark. The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams.

Then one day, a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time. Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and he stood and said "Peace" and the storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the King of Kings in its boat.

Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets as the people mocked the man who was carrying it. When they came to a stop, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as was possible, because Jesus had been crucified on it.

The moral of this story is that when things don't seem to be going your way, always know that God has a plan for you. If you place your trust in Him, He will give you great gifts. Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined. We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best.

On A Standstill...

It's been a while...Life seems to be taking on a standstill, neither moving here nor there. Suddenly, I'm losing focus on what I must achieve. Life is really hard sometimes, or most of the time...I wish I can see things clearly, that from this point I know which road will take me to the achievement I want and need. If it were so, there'd be no hardship, no tormenting thoughts, and no doubts. Maybe by then everything that I need to make my life complete will fall into place...

I don't know...this was also my sentiment some years ago, yet here I am again. It's kind of funny sometimes that my life seems to take on this kind of pattern, deja vu!

They say life is what we make it. I have a vision of what I want my life to be, but what I lack is the strength and the courage to see it through. Every night I pray for the strength and courage I need because life is quickly passing by while I, I am here on a standstill...

Travel Musings

Lately, I’ve been thinking about traveling to another place. I have itchy feet, yet I don’t have the guts to just let them lead me wherever. Traveling alone is not my cup of tea. Guess I’m not brave enough to go traipsing around the globe alone. It would be more enjoyable if I have a companion. This way I would not be nervous in finding accommodation where we can be safe. Since we’ll be hailing from the Philippines, we must first have a Philippines accommodation to stay while waiting for our flight date.

First stop would be Thailand where numerous cheap Thailand hotels can be found. Though they are cheap in price, they must be safe and have all the conveniences. But if we can’t find one, I have some friends there where we can stay for a few days. Thailand and Malaysia are just neighboring countries, so it would be a shame if we don’t take time to visit the place. I especially want to see Kuala Lumpur which is the capital and largest city of Malaysia. It is a great urban jungle that you’d get lost in it if you’re not familiar with the place. After that, we’ll fly to China. Maybe at this time of year it will be hard to find last minute China hotels because of the upcoming Olympic Games. For sure plenty of tourists will be swarming about the country to witness this great event.

Oh well, all these are just musings for the meantime anyway.

Another Year Older

Today is the 22nd of June. What is the significance of this day? Well, today is the day I turn 26. I'm really getting older... This birthday is not the best of birthdays. Bad luck is on my side. Just four days ago, we received bad news from the office...RETRENCHMENT. If you are my former officemate and you are reading this, you know what I'm talking about. It just came right out of the blue; all of us were reeling from the shock of it all. Don't worry I'm recovering from it now. I'm trying to look on the positive side,that maybe there's a much better opportunity for me out there that is why it happened.

Aside from that bad news, this weekend was also a not-so-happy one. I was so looking forward to this weekend because we were going to celebrate our birthday. My cousin June (Yagz) and I the same birthday - June 22, and my niece Golda - June 23. Last year we also celebrated our birthdays together and we had the same plan for this year. And my boyfriend Ryann was supposed to come for the celebration, unfortunately due to typhoon Frank he was not able to. There was no trip from Catanduanes since Friday morning. I was really disappointed...

Birthday girls

But anyway, we still had a bit of get together last night. I cooked yummy pasta, they bought chicken and lots of junk foods. We spent the night eating and singing. Good thing Mandy brought the videoke over, so we had some fun. There was me, Yagz, Apol, Gold, Mandy, Jenny, Ryan, Daryl, and Kuya Joey. But it could have been happier if my Ryann was there...but he called me up, so it was good.

Well, that's it. I'm now 26. What would this year bring me?

How About a Massage?

What about the HammeRuler?

Sex and The City...Survey

I Stepped On My Eyeglasses

I broke my eyeglasses! It happened by accident. Last Saturday night I had this blinding headache again. I thought I'd wash my face so that my head would be cooled as well. Then I went inside the bathroom, removed my eyeglasses and placed them on the floor by the door. So, I proceeded. Maybe it was because of the headache and the fact that I had a lot of things of my mind that when I got up and stepped out, I just heard this loud cracking noise!!! My eyeglasses!!! I really stepped on them and when I looked down, my poor eyeglasses lay there in ruins.

One lens was knocked off from the frame, but unbroken. The other was still intact. When I tried them on, well the frame was way too loose. It was totally useless. My headache was aggravated because I didn't have my glasses on!

The next day I went to Legazpi Eye Center to have my glasses fixed. Once there, I decided to just buy a new one instead. Anyway, my broken eyewear is already 4 years old.

A Short Story

This week is not a good one for me. It's fraught with changes that I just don't want to face right now. Uncertainties are at the forefront of my mind when I wake up. The worries I have just can't be denied that I just want to cry.

Yesterday, while browsing the web, I remembered a story that I came across ages ago. That story touched me deeply and I just had this deep desire to read it again. Fortunately, it was archived in the forums that I visit frequently so, I was able to find it again. I just want to share this short story with you. Though this brought tears to my eyes, it also warmed my heart.


MAGBIYENAN

Cruel misunderstandings one after another disrupted the blissful footsteps to our family. Our original intend of having Mother enjoy some quiet and peaceful moments in her remaining years with us went terribly wrong as destiny's secret is finally revealed at a price, every thing became too late.

Just two years after our marriage, hubby brought up the idea of asking Mother to move from the rural hometown and spend her remaining years with us.

Hubby's father passed away while he was still very young. Mother endured much hardship and struggled all on her own to You could say that she suffered a great deal a! nd did everything you could expect of a woman to bring hubby to where he is today. I immediately agreed and started packing the spare room, which has a balcony facing the South to let her enjoy the sunshine and plant somegreenery.

Hubby stood in the bright room, and suddenly just picked me up and started spinning round and round. As I begged him to put me down, he said: "Lets go fetch mother." Hubby is tall and big sized and I love to rest on his chest and enjoy the feeling that he could pick me up at any moment put the tiny me into his pockets.

Whenever we have an argument and both refuses to back down, he would pick me up and spin me over his head continuously until I surrender and beg for mercy. I became addicted to this kind of panic-joy feeling. Mother brought along her countryside! habits and lifestyle with her.

For example; I am so used to buying flowers to decorate the living room, she could not stand it and would comment: "I do not know how you young people spend your money, why do you buy flowers for? You also can't eat the flowers!" I smiled and said: "Mum, with flowers in the house, our mood will also become better."

Mother continues to grumble away, and hubby smiled: "Mum, this is a city-people's habit; slowly you will get use to it." Mother stopped saying anything. But every time thereafter, whenever I came home with flowers, she would ask me how much it costs. I told her and she would shake her head and express displeasure. Sometimes, when I come home with lots of shopping bags, she would ask each and every item how much they cost, I would tell her honestly and she would get even more upset about it.

Hubby playfully pinched my nose and said: "You little fool, just don't tell her the full price of everything would solve it." There begins the friction to our otherwise happy lifestyle. Mother hates it most when hubby wakes up early to prepare the breakfast.

In your view, how could the man of the house cook for the wife? At the breakfast table, mother facial __expression is always like the dark clouds before a thunderstorm and I would pretend not to notice. She would use her chopsticks and make a lot of noise with it as her silent protest.

As I am a dance teacher in the Children's Palace and is exhausted from a long day of dancing around, I do not wish to give up the luxury of that additional few minutes in the comfort of my bed and hence I turned a deaf ear ! to all the protest mother makes.

From time to time, mother would help out with some housework, but soon her help created additional work for me. For example; she would keep all kinds of plastic bags accumulating them so that she sell them later on, and that resulted in our house being filled with all the trash bags.

She would scrimp on dish washing detergent when helping to wash the dishes and so as not to hurt her feelings, I would quietly wash them again.

One day, late at night, mother saw me quietly washing the dishes, and "Bam" she slams her bedroom door and cried very loudly in her room. Hubby was placed in a difficult position, and after that, he did not speak to me for that entire night. I pretended to be a spoilt child, tried acting cute, but he totally ignored me.

I got mad and asked him: "What did I do wrong?" Hubby stared at me and said: "Can't you just give in to her once? We couldn't possibly die eating from a bowl however unclean it is, right?"After that incident, for a long period of time, mother did not speak to me and you can feel that there is a very awkward feeling hanging in the house. During that period of cold war, hubby was caught in dilemma as to who to please.

In order to stop her son from having to prepare breakfast, mother took on the "all important" task of preparing breakfast without any prompting. At the breakfast table, mother would look at hubby happily eating his breakfast and cast that reprimanding stare at me for having failed to perform my duty as a wife.

To avoid the embarrassing breakfast situation, I resorted to buying my own breakfast on my way to work. That night, while in bed, hubby was a little upset and asked me: "LD, is it because you think that mum's cooking is not clean that's why you chose not to eat at home?" He then turned his back on me and left me alone in tears as feeling of unfairness overwhelmed me.

After sometime, hubby sighed: "LD, just for me, can you have breakfast at home?" I am left with no choice but to return to the breakfast table.The next morning, I was having porridge prepared by mother and I felt a sudden churn in my stomach and everything inside seem to be rushing up my throat. I tried to suppress the urge to throw up but I couldn't. I threw down the bowl and rushed into the washroom and vomited everything out.

Just as I was catching my breath, I saw mother crying and grumbling very loudly in her dialect, hubby was standing at the washroom doorway staring at me with fire burning in his eyes.I opened my mouth but no words came out of it, I really didn't mean it.

We had our very first big fight that day; mother took a look at us, then stood up and slowly made her way out of the house. Hubby gave me a final stare in the eye and followed mother down the stairs. For three days, hubby did not return home, not even a phone call.

I was so furious, since mother arrived; I had been trying my best and putting up with her, what else do you want me to do? For no reason, I keep having the feeling to throw up and I simply have no appetite for food, coupled with all the events happening at home, I was at the low point in my life.

Finally, a colleague said: "LD, you look terrible; you should go and see a doctor." The doctor confirmed that I am pregnant. Now it became clear to me why I threw up that fateful morning, asense of sadness floated through that otherwise happy news.

Why didn't hubby, and mother who had been through this before, thought of the possibility of this being the reason that day? At the hospital entrance, I saw my hubby standing there.It had only been three days, but he looked haggard.

I had wanted to turn and leave, but one look at him and my heart soften,I couldn't resist and called out to him. He followed my voice and finally found me but he pretended that he doesn't know me; he has that disgusted look in his eyes that cut right through my heart.

I told myself not to look at him anymore, and hail a cab. At that moment, I have such a strong urge inside me to shout to my hubby: "Darling, I am having your baby!" and have him lift me up and spin me round in circles of joy. What I wanted didn't happen and as I sat in the cab, my tears started rolling down.Why? Why our love couldn't even withstand the test of one fight? Back home, I lay on the bed thinking about my hubby, and the disgusted look in his eyes. I cried and wet the corner of the blanket. That night, sound of the drawers opening woke me up. I switched on the lights and I saw hubby with tears rolling down his face.He was removing the money. I stared at him in silence; he ignored me, took the bank deposit book and some money and left the house. Maybe he really intends to leave me for good.

What a rational man, so clear-cut in love and money matters. I gave a few dried laugh and tears starting streaming down again.The next day, I did not go to work. I wanted to clear this out and have a good talk with hubby.

I reached his office and his secretary gave me a weird look and said: "Mr. Tan's mother had a traffic accident and is now in the hospital." I stood there in shock. I rushed to the hospital and by the time I found hubby, mother had already passed away. Hubby did not look at me, his face was expressionless.

I looked at mother's pale white and thin face and I couldn't control the tears in my eyes.My god, how could this happen? Throughout the funeral, hubby did say a single word to me, with only the occasional disgusted stare at me. I only managed to find out brief facts about the accident from other people.

That day, after mother left the house, she walked in dazed towards the bus stop, apparently intending to go back to her old house back in the countryside. As hubby ran after her, she tried to walk faster and as she tried to cross the street, a public bus came and hit her...I finally understood how much hubby must hate me, if I had not thrown up that morning, if we had not quarreled, if... In his heart, I am indirectly the killer of his mother. Hubby moved into mother's room and came home every night with a strong liquor smell on him. And me, I am buried under the guilt and self pity and could hardly breathe.

I wanted to explain to him, tell him that we are going to have our baby soon, but each time, I saw the dead look in his eyes, all the words I have at the brink of my mouth just fell back in.I had rather he hit me real hard or give me a big and thorough scolding though none of these events happening had been my fault at all.

Many days of suffocating silence went by and as the days went by, hubby came home later and later. The deadlock between us continues, we were living together like strangers who don't know each other. I am like the dead knot in his heart.

One day, I passed by a western restaurant, looking into the glass window, I saw hubby and a girl sitting facing each other and he very lightly brushed her hair for her, I understood what it meant.After recovering from that moment of shock, I entered the restaurant, stood in front of my hubby and stared hard at him, not a tear in my eyes.

I have nothing to say to him, and there is no need to say anything. The girl looked at me, looks at hubby, stands up and wanted to go, hubby stretched out his hand and stopped her. He stared back at me, challenging me. I can only hear my slow heart beat, beating, one by one as if at the brink of death.

I eventually backed down, if I had stood that any longer, I will collapse together with the baby inside me. That night, he did not come home; he had chosen to use that as a way to indicate to me: Following mother's death so did our love for each other.

He did not come home anymore after that. Sometimes, when I returned home from work, I can tell that the cupboard had been touched -he had returned to take some of his stuff. I no longer wish to call him; the initial desire to explain everything to him vanished.

I lived alone; I go for my medical checkups alone, my heart breaks again and again every time I see a guy carefully helping his wife through the & got physical examination. My office colleagues hinted to me to consider aborting the baby, I told them No, I will not.I insisted on having to this baby, perhaps it is my way of repaying mother for causing her death.

One day, I came home and I saw hubby sitting in the living room. The whole house was filled with cigarette smoke.On the coffee table, there was this piece of paper. I know what it is all about without even looking at it. In the two months plus of living alone, I have gradually learned to find peace within myself. I looked at him, removed my hat and said: "You wait a while, I will sign."

He looked at me, mixed feelings in his eyes, just like mine. As I hang up my coat, I keep repeating to myself "You cannot cry, you cannot cry..." my eyes hurt terribly, but I refused to let tears come out from there. After I hung up my coat, hubby's eyes stared fixed at my bulging tummy.

I smiled, walked over to the coffee table and pull the paper towards me. Without even looking at what it says, I signed my name on it and pushed the paper to him. "LD, you are pregnant?"Since mother's accident, this is the first time he spoke to me. I could not control my tears any further and they fell like raindrops.

I said: "Yes, but its ok, you can leave now." He did not go, in the dark, we sat, facing each other. Hubby slowly moved over me, his tears wet the blanket. In my heart, everything seems so far away, so far that even if I sprint, I could never reach them.

I cannot remember how many times he repeated "sorry" to me, I had originally thought that I would forgive him, but now I can't. In the western restaurant, in front of that girl, that cold look in his eyes, I will never forget, ever. We have drawn such deep scars in each other's heart.For me, it's unintentional; for him, totally intentional.

I had been waiting for this moment of reconciliation, but I realized now, what had gone past is gone forever and could not repeated.Other than the thought of the baby inside me that would bring some warmth to my heart, I am totally cold towards him, I no longer eat anything he buys for me, I don't take any presents from him and I stopped talking to him.

From the moment I signed on that piece of paper, marriage and love had vanished from my heart. Sometimes, hubby will try to come into the bedroom, but when he walks in, I will walk out to the living room. He had no choice but to sleep in mother's room. At night, from his room, I can hear light sounds of groaning, I kept quiet.

This used to be his trick; last time, whenever I ignore him, he would fake illness and I will surrender and find out what is wrong with him, he would then grab me and laugh. He has forgotten that last time; I cared for him and am concerned because there is love, but now, what is there between us?

Hubby's groaning came on and off continuing all the way till baby was born. Almost everyday, he would buy something for the baby, infant products, children products and books that kids like to read. Bag sand bags of it stacked inside his room till it is full. I know he is trying to use this to reach out to me, but I am no longer moved by his actions.

He has no choice but to lock him self in his room and I can hear him typing away on his computer keyboard, maybe he is now addicted to web surfing, but none of that matters to me anymore. It was sometime towards the end of spring in the following year, one late night, I screamed because of a sudden stomach pain, hubby came rushing into the room, its like he did not change and sleep, and had been waiting for this moment.

He carried me and ran down the stairs, stopped a car, holding my hand very tightly and kept wiping the sweat off my brown, throughout the journey to the hospital. Once we reached the hospital, he carried me and hurried into the delivery suite. Lying on the back of his skinny but warm body, a thought crossed my mind:In my lifetime, who else would love me as much as he did? He held the delivery suite door opened and watch me go in, his warm eyes caused me to managed a smile at him despite my contraction pain. Coming out of the delivery room, hubby looked at our son and me, his eyes tear with joy and he kept smiling. I reached out and touched his hand.

Hubby looked at me, smiling and then he slowly collapsed onto the floor. I cried out for him in pain... He smiled, but without opening that tired eyes of his...I had thought that I would never shed any tear for him, but the truth is, I have never felt a deeper pain cutting through my body at that moment.

Doctor said that by the time hubby discovered he had liver cancer, it was already in terminal stage and it was a miracle that he managed to last this long. I asked the doctor when did he first discover he had cancer? Doctor said about 5 months ago and consoled me saying: "Prepare for his funeral."I disregarded the nurse's objection and rushed home, I went into his room and checked his computer, and a suffocating pain hits me. Hubby's cancer was discovered 5 months ago, his groaning was real, and I had thought that... the computer showed over 200 thousand words he for our son:"Son, just for you, I have persisted, to be able to take a look at you before I fall, is my biggest wish now... I know that in your life, you will have many happiness and maybe some setbacks, if only I can accompany you throughout that journey, how nice would it be.

But daddy now no longer has that chance. Daddy has written inside here all the possible difficulties and problems you may encounter during your lifetime, when you meet with theseproblems, you can refer to daddy's suggestion... Son, after writing these 200 thousand words, I feel as if I have accompanied you through your life journey.To be honest, daddy is very happy. Do love your mother, she has suffered, she is the one who loves you most and also the one who loves me most..." From play school to primary school, to secondary, university, to work and even in dealing with questions of love, everything big and small was written there.

Hubby has also written a letter for me:"My dear, to marry you is my biggest happiness, forgive me for the pain I have caused you, forgive me for not telling you my illness, because I want to see you be in a joyful mood waiting for the arrival of our baby...My dear, if you cried, it means that you have forgiven me and I would smile, thank you for loving me... These presents, I'm afraid I cannot give them to our son personally, could you help me to give some of them to him every year, the dates on what to give when are all written on the packaging..."Going back to the hospital, hubby is still in coma. I brought our son over and place him beside him. I said: "Open your eyes and smile, I want our son to remember being in the warmth of your arms..." He struggled to open his eyes and managed a weak smile. Our son still in his arms was happily waving his tiny hands in the air.I press the button on the camera and the sound of the shutter rang thought the air as tears slowly rolled down my face......

The end...

Remember this, and keep it to your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying.You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you."Anything less than mad, passionate, extraordinary love is a waste of time. There are too many mediocre things in life to deal with and love shouldn't be one of them."

2008 Elections

To Travel the World

Since I was a child, it has been my dream to travel the world! Well, I'm pretty sure it's not only me who dreams of it. When I was in high school I grew to love reading paperbacks, especially the novels authored by Barbara Cartland. All of the settings of her novels were in United Kingdom, London in particular and the surrounding counties. She gave such wonderful descriptions of the places and this has inspired me to dream of visiting those places someday. If I go there a place to stay will not be a problem I think because there are cheap hotels where I can stay. And even if I don't make hotel reservations, there are also last minute London hotels ready to take tourists in.

If you also want to travel, another great place to go to is Australia. You know this place has British influence written all over it, so it'd be just like visiting UK. There are also great places to see in Australia. I'm sure you've heard about the Great Barrier Reef. And if you don't have a great liking for the sea, there's always the Outback where you'll see a vast desert and all kinds of creepy, crawley creatures. But it's not bad especially if you see a great view such as the Uluru Ayers Rock, WOW! Cheap hotels are also all over the place, so board and lodging will not be a problem.

Maybe the United States is also another country that would be great to visit. Now, cheap hotels really abound here no matter what state you happen to hop on.

My Blog Has a NEW Look!!!

After doing some trial and error I'm finally able to get the NEW look that I want for my blog. Just take a look! If you're a frequent visitor here you probably noticed the big change! It came to my mind just now that I should have taken a screenshot of my previous layout to let you compare and let you see the difference I'm talking about. But well, it's too late for that now.

Previously, my blog had two sidebars - one on the left and one on the right - and the main column in the middle. The various widgets I uploaded made my blog look so crowded. And I think they squash the main part of my blog, so I thought of making the sidebars work side by side. Voila! the new template layout! I think this new layout makes my blog look less cluttered.

Please let me know what you think of my new layout.

Collage

I haven't really found much use for Microsoft's Paint. It was only yesterday that I learned how to make a collage using this program. Yeah, i know quite slow of me huh? Anyway, i just want to show you a sort of collage of my face.


Here it is!

Here are also the other products of my efforts

And...

Some Thoughts About Love

Last Sunday I found some free time on my hands, so I had the chance to clean some of my things. As I was going through some of my topsy-turvy stuff I came across this folded piece of paper…one of the many crumpled pieces that I just toss into my drawer for future use…As I read it, I recalled that it was something that I copied from a forwarded email long ago. The content struck a chord within me that is why I copied it then. Just read on. Maybe you can relate to it too.


- If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn’t choose to rest in the other person’s heart.
- If you find someone to be in love with you and you don’t love him/her feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage, do not cause pain.
- If you fall in love with another and he/she falls in love with you and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is meaning. You will know in time.
- Remember that you don’t choose love, love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away…
- How you deal with love is how you deal with yourself and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys as you even if our lives and ways are different.
- The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who takes love.

Gift Ideas for Mother's Day

Mother's Day is just around the corner. Have you shopped around for the perfect gift to give your mom? I haven't. Anyway, in the previous years I don't give my mother any gift during Mother's Day. What I usually do is just greet her and kiss her on the cheek. does it make me a bad daughter? I mean, the fact that I don't give her a gift...

Maybe I'll shop around for a gift.





What would be the best gift? hmmm...

A wristwatch?

How about perfume?

A Bag?

She loves plants. Maybe I'll find a rare flowering plant to add to her collection.

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Bukidnon - MVC Photos

I finally had the time to post some photos of our trip to Bukidnon. Hope you enjoy viewing them!

The Solution To Bad Credit

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Too Lazy To Write

We got back from our Bukidnon trip last Tuesday. It's already Thursday now, but I can't seem to muster up the enthusiasm to write a blow-by-blow account of what transpired in the Youth Congress that we attended. Maybe I just feel too lazy to write about it...and maybe I don't want to think back on those days and the bad things that happened. I still have a hangover from the tiring trip, uugghhh! And I can't even post some of the photos because I still haven't downloaded them from my cam. Like I said I feel lazy! And another thing, I can't find the USB for my cam, but I'm sure it's just there among my jumbled things. It'll be another big bad luck if I lost it.

Just Blowing Off Steam!

Listening to Evanescence's My Immortal right now. I am so pissed off again. I don't know why some people just don't seem to appreciate what's in front of them...efforts done and everything. Or maybe the do appreciate but they can't return the favor...or maybe they just don't want to. Is it me or is it the people around me? I don't get it... i just really don't get it...

I thought everything was ok again, but here you go again, doin' what you're good at - TAKING THINGS FOR GRANTED!!! I thought I've buried all the hurt in the past, but every little neglect you do just bring them all back. I hate this kind of feeling that sometimes I just wish I was numb.

Not Much Time for Blogging

Does my blog look abandoned? I feel sad that I haven't been able to update this for the past few weeks. There's just so much going on lately, especially with work. I'll try to be more diligent in giving updates in the next few days...but I'm not promising anything haha.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to our trip to Bukidnon next week. Maybe this is the change of environment and rest that I badly need, even for just a short time. This trip will be my farthest trip so far. The farthest part of the Philippines that I've been to is Baguio, and that was back in 2001! So, you can see how much I'm looking forward to this trip. I hope everything will be ok during our time there. By "we" I mean myself, Ryann, Yagz, Gold, Mandy, Jenny and Ryan. There are seven of us from our church who are joining the Congress to be held in Bukidnon next week. Last weekend, we've already bought the things we would need, so it's just a matter of waiting now.

We will leave on Saturday. Well, I can hardly wait!

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Samsung's Ultra thin P200 Laptop

I don't know why but when I'm online I usually find myself browsing for notebooks. I was able to come across ulta thin notebooks, which seems to be the latest notebook craze. Among the notebworthy tin notebooks I've come across are the MacBook Air and the Lenovo X1300 ThinkPad. Here's another ultra thin notebook that I'd like to share to you - the Samsung P200. Specs? Read on:

• Intel Core2Duo


• ATI Xpress 1250 graphics card


• 1.3 MP camera


• 2 USB ports


• ethernet port


• 6-in-1 card reader


• PCI X-slot


• 4.17 lbs/12.1-inches long

Info is from blog.wired.com:-)

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Touring Asia

I’ve always liked the notion of traveling. Well, I’m sure seasoned travelers know the excitement of going to places they’ve never been to before. If I were to travel the first area I would go to is just here in Asia. Asia is one of the locations of some of the most fascinating tourist attractions around the globe. A lot of Westerners even come to Asia to experience the different culture and entirely different way of life. The regular haunts of tourists are Thailand, Malaysia and Singapore.

So what’s amazing about these countries? In Thailand for example, there are so many beautiful beaches in which to sunbathe and take a dip. If you don’t like the beach there’s always Bangkok, the nation’s capital. They say it is the place to shop if you want good outfits for a cheap price. And there are always Cheap Hotels in Bangkok where you can lodge in. You can also go to the provinces if you want to experience the more quiet way of life.

Another fascinating place is Singapore. From what I’ve heard from people who have been to this place, Singapore is one of the cleanest and most disciplined countries in the world. There’s hardly garbage on the streets and no policemen either since petty crimes rarely happen over there. Well, sure would love to visit Singapore someday soon. Cheap Hotels in Singapore also abound so a place to stay won’t be a problem. It’s the same thing with Malaysia. Cheap Hotels in Kuala Lumpur are easy to find if you decide to extend your tour to this country.

Wish I could tour to these places one day :-)

Oscars 2008

Who among you watched the Oscars? I didn't! I was busy with other things. I found the results of the prestigious award giving body. I'd like to share them with you.

Best Motion PictureWINNER: “No Country for Old Men”

Performance By An Actor In A Leading RoleWINNER: Daniel Day-Lewis in “There Will Be Blood”

Performance By An Actress In A Leading RoleWINNER: Marion Cotillard in “La Vie en Rose”

Performance By An Actor In A Supporting RoleWINNER: Javier Bardem in “No Country for Old Men”

Performance By An Actress In A Supporting RoleWINNER: Tilda Swinton in “Michael Clayton”

Achievement In DirectingWINNER: Joel Coen and Ethan Coen for “No Country for Old Men”

Adapted ScreenplayWINNER: “No Country for Old Men” by Joel Coen and Ethan Coen

Original ScreenplayWINNER: “Juno” by Diablo Cody

Achievement In Music Written For Motion Pictures (Original Song)WINNER: Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova for “Falling Slowly” from “Once”

Achievement In Music Written For Motion Pictures (Original Score)WINNER: Dario Marianelli for “Atonement”

Achievement In CinematographyWINNER: Robert Elswit for “There Will Be Blood”

Achievement In Film EditingWINNER: Christopher Rouse for “The Bourne Ultimatum”

Achievement In Costume DesignWINNER: Alexandra Byrne for “Elizabeth: The Golden Age”

Achievement In Art DirectionWINNER: Dante Ferretti and Francesca Lo Schiavo for “Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street”

Best Animated Feature FilmWINNER: “Ratatouille”

Best Animated Short FilmWINNER: “Peter & the Wolf”

Best Live Action Short FilmWINNER: “Le Mozart des Pickpockets (The Mozart of Pickpockets)”

Best Documentary FeatureWINNER: “Taxi to the Dark Side”

Best Foreign Language FilmWINNER: “The Counterfeiters” (Austria)

Achievement In Visual EffectsWINNER: Michael Fink, Bill Westenhofer, Ben Morris and Trevor Wood for “The Golden Compass”

In MakeupWINNER: Didier Lavergne and Jan Archibald for “La Vie en Rose”

Achievement In Sound EditingWINNER: Karen Baker Landers and Per Hallberg for “The Bourne Ultimatum”

Achievement In Sound MixingWINNER: Scott Millan, David Parker and Kirk Francis for “The Bourne Ultimatum”

My Blogging Personality

This something interesting I found in Mina's blog. I took the test too, and here's the result. Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate

You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger.You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause.You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you!A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.

What's" Your Blogging Personality?

What Roses Tell You

Valentines Day is almost upon us once again. This is the perfect time to get romantic and of course, to shower your loved one with gifts!!! Don't know if you'll agree with me on that.

It's a fact that flowers, particularly roses, are the most common type of gift being given on Valentines Day. The roses come in different colors. But do you know each color signifies different meanings? Read this if you don't want to be mistaken in the color of roses you'd like to send on the 14th. Red Roses - Red roses proclaim "I love you." They are the ultimate symbol of romantic love and enduring passion.

Yellow Roses - Yellow roses indicate friendship and freedom -- so don't send them if your intentions are romantic and long-lasting. Yellow roses are also appropriate for sending congratulations to newlyweds, graduates.

Pale Pink Roses -pale pink roses connote grace, gentleness, and gratitude.Light Pink Roses - A joy to behold, light pink roses express fun and happiness.

Deep Pink Roses - Deep pink roses say "Thank you."

Lilac Roses - Lilac roses indicate the sender has fallen in love at first sight with the recipient and is enchanted.

White Roses - Pure white roses symbolize truth and innocence. They also send other messages: "I miss you" and "You're heavenly.

Coral Roses - Coral roses express one thing with their passionate color: Desire.

Peach Roses - Peach roses speak of appreciation, gratitude, and also sympathy.

Orange Roses - Orange roses communicate enthusiasm and desire on the part of the sender.

Dead Roses - Regardless of the original color, dead roses say "It's over" loud and clear.

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For those who have the same problem as me, TrustSource could be a great help. You know it won’t hurt to try out the payday loan service if you’re really in dire need of cash. I am thinking of trying it out as well. With this very beneficial service, I can say goodbye to my headaches knowing full well there’s somewhere I can get help when I need it. Another attractive feature is that they have a flexible payment alternative so you can just relax when the due date arrives.