Summer Getaway at Pinamuntugan Island

Pinamuntugan Island has very light sand, though it's not white. But the water is bluish-green. When we were swimming the current was quite strong in some parts that we were being tossed in the water like dolls.

The Breathtaking Aguirangan Island

It took my breath away! Its 1.5-hectare formation with white beach and crystal clear waters was so beautiful!

Jelly Fish: The Rarely Seen Beauty Under the Sea

Have you ever seen a jellyfish up close? I have. I think it's one of the most beautiful creatures of the sea.

June 29, 2007

Dealing with Depression

The past few days has been a very difficult time for me. I don't know if you can relate to the feeling like you're just standing on an abyss and with just one step you'll fall right over the edge... And i can't even sleep properly anymore or eat. When i do sleep, its only in a fitful doze and i will wake up in the middle of the night, just wishing the sun would come up soon and free me from the darkness... when i eat, a few tablespoons that after a eating i only feel like throwing up... Sometimes, i feel like the weight is just becoming too much but i don't want to sink into depression again... so i began browsing online for some helpful tips/articles that can help... The following paragraphs are lifted from The last paragraph has been especially helpful for me...

Coping With Depression - Medical OptionsCoping with depression is possible and there are many options. Depression can sometimes be caused by a chemical imbalance and medications are often used to correct this imbalance. A physician can prescribe the appropriate medications or refer you to another doctor who is more knowledgeable. There are several antidepressants available and sometimes more than one medication may be suggested. Your physician may prescribe which medication to use based on several factors:
How has depression affected your activity patterns?
Have your eating patterns been affected?
How have your sleep patterns varied since the depression began?
Have your interest patterns changed?

Other components, such as anxiety, will also help determine which, if any, medication to use. Sometimes a trial and error method may be used to find the most effective medication for you which can often result in greater emotional distress.

Coping With Depression - Therapy OptionsThere are also therapy options for coping with depression, such as talking with a qualified counselor who can talk through problems with you, teach coping skills, and provide support systems. I went to a Christian therapist. At times, this was a challenge for me. He would tell me to look to my faith for answers and I wanted to scream. I was looking to my faith, but I was not finding the answers. Or perhaps, I was getting answers, but I wanted different ones! We were able to discuss circumstances and I learned how to cope in various situations. My depressed feelings began to lift and I began to cope with challenges in my life. I began finding strength in my faith.

Coping With Depression - Finding True Self Worth - A big means of coping with depression came through finding my true self worth. I had previously based my self worth on the approval of my friends and on my ability to perform in my job. When I could no longer fulfill my work responsibilities due to injury, I felt worthless. Over time, I began to realize that my true self worth does not come from within me. It comes from God-my Creator. God loves me. Through this tremendous love, I have once again found worth and significance in my life. He is my significance! 1 Thessalonians 2:12 says, "...walk worthy of God who calls you into His own kingdom and glory."

June 20, 2007

Where To Belong?

Work has just started, i haven't even made a headway with the proofreading/editing that i have to do. Garbled thoughts are just running throuhg my head and I just have to write them down and make sense of them. So if anyone's reading this, just be patient...

Today is the 20th of June, and the day after tomorrow is going to be my birthday. Wow, im turning 25 then, it's kind of overwhelming ... mixed emotions of happy, anxious, sad, its hard to expalin. But really how am i supposed to feel? It's like i've been alive in this earth yet its always making me think, so far what have i achieved in my 25 years? Not much that's for sure. Somehow it feels like time if running our on me ... and its like everyhting is just so unstable at this time. A lot of changes is going to take place in a few weeks especially in my family..

My brother is getting married next month. This morning when i was on the jeepney on my way here it just sunk in that both my siblings will already have a family of their own... They'll have their own family circle, somewhere that they can belong for the rest of their life ... it just makes me wonder within myself "where does that leave me?" Just thinking about it makes me think and feel like a displaced waif. Like a fledgeling that must leave the nest and find her own...

Can you make sense of what I'm saying here? troubled thoughts are really hard to fathom. Maybe this is really what you call the quarter life crisis (QLC) as researched by my friend dexter. But i know it's not only me who's in this stage right now. I just hope the pieces fall in their right places soon, soon soon!!!!