Good Read: The Story of Two Teardrops

When my mind is becoming drained from writing about auto parts, I give myself a little break by reading inspiring stories. This is one story that made an impact on me today. It states realities about love that I never would have been able to put into words. It's from gagirl.com.

The Story of Two Teardrops

Two little teardrops were floating down the river of life. One drop said to the other, "I am the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him." Who are you? "Well, I am the teardrop of the girl who won him."

Love is very strange. Love is unconditional commitment to an imperfect individual. You need it but when you love, it's like destining yourself for pain. You become addicted and dependent on the person. You become strong and at the same time, you open yourself up to being hurt. Love can make you bear any kind of pain and any kind of sacrifice. It can also make you feel stupid and act stupidly. Sometimes when you love and end up giving so much of yourself, subconciously you only discover how much you've given when the person you love hurts you or has to say goodbye.

Then you realize, an important part of yourself is already with that person. It goes away when he leaves and you are left with a sickening, empty feeling inside.

Tears are bound to shed from your eyes no matter how you force yourself to keep them in. Most teardrops ever shed on this earth have been for love or lack of it. When tears dry, a silent loss sticks to your heart for a long, long time.

Well, that's what you get for caring so much about someone. But how can you regret it? To give yourself freely and lovingly is the most beautiful thing you can do. Loving
makes you real. Loving also makes you cry. And that is why a teardrop is also BEAUTIFUL.

Author Unknown

Take Life One Day at a Time

Has there been a time in your life when each day that comes seems to be like a battlefield? I felt that way too. The later part of the past year has been pretty hard. At every turn I only seem to make bad decisions. As we all know, once decisions have been made and acted upon there’s really no turning back. These decisions have corresponding results; sometimes the outcome is good, at other times not so good. But as I’ve said there’s no turning back. There are times, during my quiet moments that thoughts like “what if I’ve done things differently” creep into my subconscious.

Thoughts like this keep popping in my head lately but I have to shake them off because they won’t do me any good now. I know I can never bring back what used to be. But, sometimes, in the middle of the night I find tears running down my cheeks, wetting my pillow. I know tears are futile, but, they help ease the pain of regret. And I know the day will come when these tears will dry up. My friend Gellette gave me a good advice, she said “Learn to slow down and see what God’s plan is for you.” That made me think. It’s really true. One of my weaknesses is patience. I find it difficult to wait.

So, now, I had to learn this lesson the very hard way...I made so many mistakes and lost everything that mattered because of it. And now I’m just beginning to pick up the pieces of my life. I’m taking life one day at a time until I find forgiveness in myself and finally rebuild what has been lost...

First Post 2009!

Had a nice, long vacation back home. It's back to work again here in the urban jungle!

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My Latest Find: Pon and Zi

A few weeks ago I went browsing on Youtube for one of Usher's songs. I found the song that I was looking for but the video was not of him. It was of these two cute characters - Pon and Zi. What struck me most were the statements they made. At my state that time, I could really relate to what these characters were saying. They just seem to express what I was feeling too, all my confusion, all my hurts.. Take a look at these pictures and maybe you'll understand...

Poem at 4:35

What Hurts Most

Thought what we had was a beginning
Not the beginning of the end
On the verge of discovering new feelings
Good things seemed to be growing
Suddenly reality comes crashing in
Everything coming all at once causing pain
Should have know it was wrong from the start
And I should never have let you inside my heart
Now all I feel is regret and pain
From promises you made in vain
What hurts the most, I believed everything you said
Too late to find out you were playing with my head
Because of you I again believed in fairy tales
And happy endings

In chocolates, roses, and pink-flowered dreams;
But now, all hopes are again dashed to pieces
All that’s left is me to deal with the brokenness;
On the outside people see me laugh and smile
But deep inside is a pain I cannot hide
Despite all that I will not let you see me cry
Maybe this is the end and I will say my goodbye…

Poem at 3:51

Sometimes things happen and we can't find the reason why they happened they way they did. Irrational, unexplianable, and just too big for words...Feelings overflow and we just have to find release anyway we can.


Because I Wanted To Believe

There’s no one to blame but myself
I guess I wanted badly to believe
Again too blind to see
That you were just fooling me
Your sweet tongue whispered
Things that my heart longed after
Thought there was sincerity in your eyes
Too late to realize they were cold as ice
You saw and played my weakness
Too believing that I did not notice
You were just entertaining yourself at my expense
Toying with my feelings

There’s no one to blame but myself
I guess I just wanted badly to believe
That someone is genuine enough to care
Right now the hurt seems too much to bear
There’s no one to blame but myself
I guess I wanted badly to believe
There’s no one to blame but myself
Because I let myself believe…

When will I ever learn?
Happy endings don’t happen though we yearn
Love is just a wisp of thin air
An idea imagined, untrue, and unfair
I guess in it I just really wanted to believe
There’s no one to blame but myself
Because I let myself believe…

iPods: Great Gift Ideas

I’m the type of person who cannot go without hearing music the entire day. Without music my life just seems incomplete. The day always seem brighter and problems lighter if I hear my favourite music. But, I usually have to wait to get home in order to listen to my music because all my music files are in my laptop. It’s just unfortunate that I don’t have a portable mp3 player right now. But, I’m dying to have one soon. With an mp3 player I can listen to all my music anytime, anywhere. What do you think would be the best choice for an mp3 player? Hmm, I read on the net that there is a new version of the iPod Nano, a slimmer and more dynamic version! I’d sure love to have that one.

Anyway, Christmas is just around the corner so, an iPod Nano would be a great gift for myself. For those of you who don’t have any gift ideas yet, you can welcome the idea of giving an iPod to your most favoured loved one. If that particular someone is not very keen on music, you can always go for an iPod Touch. Well, that’s only if you are feeling generous!

Giving this kind of gifts need not be daunting. Of course you have to do your research first before you actually buy any of them. There are helpful sites that provide price comparison for these kinds of items. To make things easy for you just be sure to find a price comparison site that gives reliable service for price comparisons of iPods. Just keep in mind, you can find all of them online.