Welcome Sandrine Raine!

We have a new addition to the family! Her name is Sandrine Raine, and she's sooo pretty! I'm not kidding. Well, i guess it runs in the family hehehe. My sister gave birth, through caesarian section last Dec 16. I had to come home earlier than what I planned because there wasn't anybody to assist them with errands and things at the hospital.

My new niece is so cute and pretty really. I think she takes after her mommy. Her big sister Althea is also very excited to have her. It's too bad she can't come near baby Nica (that's her nickname by the way, according to Thea) because she has a cold.

Here are some pictures of my new niece:)

Tired...

Lately, I just can't seem to muster much enthusiasm about anything. Everything that I do each day just seem so mechanical...like I'm a robot going through all the motions...my heart's not really in it. I may smile and laugh during the day but, after the lights go out my thoughts just come crowding in. Questions...so many whys...what ifs...what about...what's going to happen...all of these just keep resounding inside my head, unanswered because I don't have the answers.

Late at night, when i'm alone with my thoughts, I can't help but think about what I've really always wanted. Can't help questioning why we don't get what we really want in this life. In my heart of hearts, I don't think that what I've ever wanted was that hard, but why does it continue to elude me? To be constantly out of my reach? All I've ever really wanted was that one thing, but why is it so hard to find? I've prayed, I've waited, and prayed again but still nothing...I'm getting tired of waiting.

Jellyfish: The Rarely Seen Beauty Under the Sea

Have you ever seen a jellyfish up close? I have. I think it's one of the most beautiful creatures of the sea.

Take a look at these. These pictures were taken at the Ocean Park in Hong Kong when we went there last October.

Great Materials for Home and Office

I find myself thinking about a lot of things lately. I know what I need is a diversion to keep these thoughts at bay and maybe they will just go away. But what? Hmm, how about redecorating this room I’m living in now? Not much can be done about this room anymore. It’s just too bad because I found a site that provides an extensive array of products that can be used for home improvement. Logo mats are great stuffs for changing the look of a certain area, right? So, maybe it will make this room look better.

Stores, offices, and other establishments will find this very useful as well. If they have exhibits or trade shows coming up, they will find the trade show carpet very beneficial for giving their booth a cosy ambiance. Attractive materials are used in the trade show flooring and trade show carpet so, they will definitely add pizzazz to the place. And if the exhibit is located outside the building, the logo canopy will surely come in handy as well. A variety of styles and designs are available for people who need high-end materials for professional use and even for people, like me, who are looking for materials to be used in minor room improvements.

True Friendship Beyond Distance

One of my best friends left for abroad today. I won’t be seeing him for two years. I know some think that it’s not really too long but, I just can’t help feeling lost somehow. Ever since I came here in Manila, he’s been one of the people who’ve been like a constant companion. He's always there to listen to my woes and just about everything. He's very comfortable to be with because I could talk about almost anything with him. Last year was so much fun because we used to go to church together with our other closest friends Mandy and Jeni. And now, he’s gone away. It feels like I’ve lost a friend again. But I know that true friendship never ends even when two people don’t see each other for some time. He’s like my little brother though he’s really so much bigger than me. He’s one of the nicest and gentlest guys I know, a true friend who won’t let you down. I hope you’ll be okay there Bunso. Be happy!

Poetry: An Hour in Coffee Bean

An Hour in Coffee Bean


I gave you so many chances to explain
About all the promises you made in vain;
Though I may look like a fool in this place
It doesn’t matter if in the end I’ll have peace

But the clock is ticking, and time is passing
By now I should realize you’re never coming,
Still, I’ll wait ‘til the very last minute,
I’ll give you the chance though you don’t deserve it.

Half an hour to go and that is all
This is the time whether we stand or we fall;
I’m trying to be positive about everything
But like a flood, anger and resentment again are starting.

Now the time is almost through
And it’s proving that nothing you ever said was true.
If anything were true and real
You’d be here and all wounds would heal.

I stare through this huge glass
Watching absently as people pass,
Hoping to see a familiar face break through the crowd,
But that’s just wishful thinking on a cloud.

Just in the nick of time you came
But it all ended up the same.
The questions were still left unanswered;
Maybe I shouldn't have even bothered.


We can never bring back what used to be
Even the friendship between you and me;
Maybe in time I can really forgive, and finally forget;
Until then, I hope our paths never meet.

After All This Time

I saw you again. I was shocked to see you there last Saturday. I wasn't really expecting it, or you. Maybe if we hadn't turned back to the front door I wouldn't have seen you, or you me. It was you who saw me first. I wasn't really minding the people walking by, but suddenly there was a tap on my arm, and when I looked it was you. After nine months of silence and just wondering what happened and why everything turned out the way they did, I saw you. I didn't know what to think, what to do. When you looked at me it was like you were so glad to see me, but then when I looked at you I couldn't help the feeling of resentment over the unexplained things that came flooding back. But I fought it and I tried to act normal. I guess I didn't smile when I saw you because suddenly the smile was wiped off your face as well. But you came with us anyway. I acted nonchalantly the way you did. Call me pretender but that's really what I did. I pretended to be civil, to be polite, to be friendly despite the resentment I was feeling. I kept thinking to myself, "why am I even talking to you?" but I couldn't help myself. I guess I was giving you the chance to explain, but you didn't. Until we parted ways.

I texted you that night, asking how you were. I sent you a message that we needed to talk about the unresolved things, but you never replied. Finally, it really made me think that there was nothing I could do about it anymore if you didn't want to talk to me. But through someone's advice I gave you another chance. I texted you again that if you wanted to talk I will wait for you at this specific time and place. I guess it was hoping for too much to expect any reply. But though there wasn't any reply, I went there and waited. I gave one whole hour. I sat there, sipping my coffee and thinking how stupid I could be waiting for nothing. But I waited. One hour. But the minutes passed, and still nothing. To pass the time I tried to write a poem about that hour. I looked at my watch again, 5 minutes to 5. Then I received a text from you. You came. If the hour went by without hearing anything from you, it would have been goodbye forever, without resolution, without healing all the hurt. So, we talked, or rather I talked...all the resentment, all my hurt. You just stood there with the somber look on your face. I asked why you did what you did, but I wasn't satisfied with your reasons. But I just let it go. It's just time for me to stop hurting, to stop blaming myself because you know in your heart it wasn't me but rather your deceitful heart. After all this time I'm finally letting all my hurt go...I'm letting you go.