For a time all blue and sunny skies
But now dark clouds again are hovering above
Thought I had risen over theme before
Yet now here they are again, ever descending and
Enclosing me in its darkness
Until I can no longer see a speck of light
Reaching out though I am nothing I can grasp
Helplessly I feel myself falling in the abyss where I once was
The pain and the agony…ever growing, ever near
Overwhelming me until I feel I am no more
My spirit leaving me until I will be just a shell of my former self
Like before I cry yet no one seems to hear
In my brain I hear myself screaming, sound just
Echoing inside
I need your help but you’re not here
For you have turned away…
And I am alone, ever alone…again…
November 7, 2007
I Don't Know
Never thought there could be so much pain
But as some say, when you love likewise there is pain
It’s just a long drawn-out battle between joy and pain
So thin a line that separate,
Go out of sphere and you end up on the other side
Maybe overstepped the line I did and hurt you
I’ve said sorry but do you have to hurt me too?
And now I just don’t know where we stand
Do we stand together or are we divided
In my self I try to search the answer but cannot find
It is only you who holds the key. . .
But as some say, when you love likewise there is pain
It’s just a long drawn-out battle between joy and pain
So thin a line that separate,
Go out of sphere and you end up on the other side
Maybe overstepped the line I did and hurt you
I’ve said sorry but do you have to hurt me too?
And now I just don’t know where we stand
Do we stand together or are we divided
In my self I try to search the answer but cannot find
It is only you who holds the key. . .
November 6, 2007
Know more about me
This description really fits, so for those who want to know more about me, this is the perfect tool. This is from pravsworld.com.
Know Yourself ::: Cancer
If a Cancer has an interest in you, they will drop subtle clues. Don't expect them to be forward, as they don't know how to be.Since they have a tendency to be old-fashion in beliefs, the perfect date would be tickets to the theater, a romantic restaurant, or a cultural event. As they tend to be romantic day dreamers, and reflect in the past, bring up some old stories so that they can relate some of theirs. Show an interest to this sentimentalist when they bring out their collections or old pictures.
They thrive on admiration and praise. Let them know how much you admire them. Compliments will get you everywhere. Ask their opinion, and be sure to be sincere about hearing their response.
Keep in mind that a Cancerian hates rejection and is extremely cautious about making any commitment. They will try to avoid giving an answer, and whatever you do, don't try to rush them into one.
Usually if the answer is no, they will go to all lengths to avoid the subject
The Cancer has an excellent memory and a jealous nature. Because they can recall situations in their past very easily, it would be a tremendous mistake to ever be insincere to this person.
To them betrayal is devastating, and it will take a very long time for them to forgive, and to top it off, they may never forget. Once emotionally wounded, there will always be a void in the relationship.
Emotional and financial security is of the utmost importance in this relationship. They don't like frivolous spending, since it means a loss of control and security.
If you can give an enormous amount of attention and constant reassurance, you have found the perfect mate. In return you will find Cancer to be affectionate, romantic, sympathetic, imaginative, and quite seductive.
Although they tend to want your complete devotion, if they are in love, they will cherish and protect their partner always.
Know Yourself ::: Cancer
If a Cancer has an interest in you, they will drop subtle clues. Don't expect them to be forward, as they don't know how to be.Since they have a tendency to be old-fashion in beliefs, the perfect date would be tickets to the theater, a romantic restaurant, or a cultural event. As they tend to be romantic day dreamers, and reflect in the past, bring up some old stories so that they can relate some of theirs. Show an interest to this sentimentalist when they bring out their collections or old pictures.
They thrive on admiration and praise. Let them know how much you admire them. Compliments will get you everywhere. Ask their opinion, and be sure to be sincere about hearing their response.
Keep in mind that a Cancerian hates rejection and is extremely cautious about making any commitment. They will try to avoid giving an answer, and whatever you do, don't try to rush them into one.
Usually if the answer is no, they will go to all lengths to avoid the subject
The Cancer has an excellent memory and a jealous nature. Because they can recall situations in their past very easily, it would be a tremendous mistake to ever be insincere to this person.
To them betrayal is devastating, and it will take a very long time for them to forgive, and to top it off, they may never forget. Once emotionally wounded, there will always be a void in the relationship.
Emotional and financial security is of the utmost importance in this relationship. They don't like frivolous spending, since it means a loss of control and security.
If you can give an enormous amount of attention and constant reassurance, you have found the perfect mate. In return you will find Cancer to be affectionate, romantic, sympathetic, imaginative, and quite seductive.
Although they tend to want your complete devotion, if they are in love, they will cherish and protect their partner always.
Nature Walk
Going out for nature walk is one of the programs our church has agreed upon to make our Sabbath afternoon more lively. These pictures were taken during our first nature walk. enjoy!!!
November 5, 2007
Our True Selves?
Whenever someone asks me to describe myself, somehow I always find it hard to do so. Does this mean I don't really know myself? MAYBE. I know I am not alone in this matter. It always makes me think that when the subject is already about the self most people would shy away from the subject. This is very evident especially in school. Whenever students are tasked to do an essay about them they would groan and moan about it. Another example is during job interviews. The question tell about us about yourself or describe yourself is always being asked. How do we answer? Of course we only say desirable and favorable things about ourselves so that we would gain their approval. We even practice the dialogue so that it will come out right. Is this a manifestation that we truly and fully know ourselves?
Now why is it hard to talk about ourselves? I think one reason is the one i mentioned before. He does not himself that well. Another reason - most are afraid of revealing their true selves to others, for fear that if they show weakness it will be used against him. We may not notice it but, most of us wear "masks", (though not the literal "mask" that we put on)! This mask cannot be seen others, only those who know you very well will know if you are putting on a "mask" or an act/pretense/ to shield or hide your real self.
Though there some people who can easily answer when they are asked about things regarding themselves and their personalities. Some of them easily disclose their ideals . . sometimes they even say things that are better left confidential. Is this the manifestation of a person who truly knows himself inside and out? Actually I don't know. What is really the basis when we can already say that “I fully know myself" or " I know who I am", without any hesitation?
Well I believe everyday is a learning experience. It does not just take like 5, 20 years or even 40 years for us to be fully acquainted with our true selves. Each circumstance, every person we encounter and everything that we achieve helps us get to know our inner selves better each day.
Now why is it hard to talk about ourselves? I think one reason is the one i mentioned before. He does not himself that well. Another reason - most are afraid of revealing their true selves to others, for fear that if they show weakness it will be used against him. We may not notice it but, most of us wear "masks", (though not the literal "mask" that we put on)! This mask cannot be seen others, only those who know you very well will know if you are putting on a "mask" or an act/pretense/ to shield or hide your real self.
Though there some people who can easily answer when they are asked about things regarding themselves and their personalities. Some of them easily disclose their ideals . . sometimes they even say things that are better left confidential. Is this the manifestation of a person who truly knows himself inside and out? Actually I don't know. What is really the basis when we can already say that “I fully know myself" or " I know who I am", without any hesitation?
Well I believe everyday is a learning experience. It does not just take like 5, 20 years or even 40 years for us to be fully acquainted with our true selves. Each circumstance, every person we encounter and everything that we achieve helps us get to know our inner selves better each day.
November 4, 2007
Personality Test
Big Five Test Results |
| Extroversion (44%) moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and private. Friendliness (59%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense of your own individual development (martyr complex). Orderliness (85%) very high which suggests you are overly organized, neat, structured and restrained at the expense too often of flexibility, variety, spontaneity, and fun. Emotional Stability (26%) low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Openmindedness (46%) medium which suggests you are moderately intellectual, curious, and imaginative. |
personality tests by similarminds.com
September 10, 2007
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