Welcome Sandrine Raine!

We have a new addition to the family! Her name is Sandrine Raine, and she's sooo pretty! I'm not kidding. Well, i guess it runs in the family hehehe. My sister gave birth, through caesarian section last Dec 16. I had to come home earlier than what I planned because there wasn't anybody to assist them with errands and things at the hospital.

My new niece is so cute and pretty really. I think she takes after her mommy. Her big sister Althea is also very excited to have her. It's too bad she can't come near baby Nica (that's her nickname by the way, according to Thea) because she has a cold.

Here are some pictures of my new niece:)

Tired...

Lately, I just can't seem to muster much enthusiasm about anything. Everything that I do each day just seem so mechanical...like I'm a robot going through all the motions...my heart's not really in it. I may smile and laugh during the day but, after the lights go out my thoughts just come crowding in. Questions...so many whys...what ifs...what about...what's going to happen...all of these just keep resounding inside my head, unanswered because I don't have the answers.

Late at night, when i'm alone with my thoughts, I can't help but think about what I've really always wanted. Can't help questioning why we don't get what we really want in this life. In my heart of hearts, I don't think that what I've ever wanted was that hard, but why does it continue to elude me? To be constantly out of my reach? All I've ever really wanted was that one thing, but why is it so hard to find? I've prayed, I've waited, and prayed again but still nothing...I'm getting tired of waiting.