God's Love

GOD's LOVE

This night more than ever
In my heart is loneliness only You can sever
Never have I felt more alone than now
To move away from this plane, please show me how.

I’ve sought happiness in the wrong places
Compromised in this world of transient graces;
Satisfaction found is but the fleeting kind
How I long to leave it all behind.

My weakness causes me pain; it shrivels my soul in shame
But Lord, You stand by me and never lay on me the blame;
As tears of pain and regret fall from my eyes each night
I can feel Your arms wrapped around me, holding me tight.

You give me comfort like no one else can
You listen to my troubled heart over and over again
You always shine Your light on my way
When no one would give me the time of day.

This night I will find rest in your gentle embrace
Enfold me in your love, in your strength, and everlasting grace.
And should the last breath be taken in the gloom of midnight,
May Your eternal peace encompass me like an everlasting light.

Know Your Carbon Footprint

Every one of us has that sympathy for the plight that our environment is suffering these days. However, very few do something about it. Some just let it end in feelings while others take action. To which category do you belong?

As we all know, pollution is one of the biggest problems our world is facing today. All of us are contributors and all of us are guilty. Although we vary in the amount we contribute, it still boils down to the fact that we are a part of the circle that feeds the demise of mother earth. But, aren't you just a tiny bit curious how much you contribute to carbon dioxide production? Well, if you want to know, join the Carbon Advice Group. They have a program called "Carbon Footprint", which aims to help individuals and businesses reduce consumption for the betterment of our planet.

Good Read: The Story of Two Teardrops

When my mind is becoming drained from writing about auto parts, I give myself a little break by reading inspiring stories. This is one story that made an impact on me today. It states realities about love that I never would have been able to put into words. It's from gagirl.com.

The Story of Two Teardrops

Two little teardrops were floating down the river of life. One drop said to the other, "I am the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him." Who are you? "Well, I am the teardrop of the girl who won him."

Love is very strange. Love is unconditional commitment to an imperfect individual. You need it but when you love, it's like destining yourself for pain. You become addicted and dependent on the person. You become strong and at the same time, you open yourself up to being hurt. Love can make you bear any kind of pain and any kind of sacrifice. It can also make you feel stupid and act stupidly. Sometimes when you love and end up giving so much of yourself, subconciously you only discover how much you've given when the person you love hurts you or has to say goodbye.

Then you realize, an important part of yourself is already with that person. It goes away when he leaves and you are left with a sickening, empty feeling inside.

Tears are bound to shed from your eyes no matter how you force yourself to keep them in. Most teardrops ever shed on this earth have been for love or lack of it. When tears dry, a silent loss sticks to your heart for a long, long time.

Well, that's what you get for caring so much about someone. But how can you regret it? To give yourself freely and lovingly is the most beautiful thing you can do. Loving
makes you real. Loving also makes you cry. And that is why a teardrop is also BEAUTIFUL.

Author Unknown

Take Life One Day at a Time

Has there been a time in your life when each day that comes seems to be like a battlefield? I felt that way too. The later part of the past year has been pretty hard. At every turn I only seem to make bad decisions. As we all know, once decisions have been made and acted upon there’s really no turning back. These decisions have corresponding results; sometimes the outcome is good, at other times not so good. But as I’ve said there’s no turning back. There are times, during my quiet moments that thoughts like “what if I’ve done things differently” creep into my subconscious.

Thoughts like this keep popping in my head lately but I have to shake them off because they won’t do me any good now. I know I can never bring back what used to be. But, sometimes, in the middle of the night I find tears running down my cheeks, wetting my pillow. I know tears are futile, but, they help ease the pain of regret. And I know the day will come when these tears will dry up. My friend Gellette gave me a good advice, she said “Learn to slow down and see what God’s plan is for you.” That made me think. It’s really true. One of my weaknesses is patience. I find it difficult to wait.

So, now, I had to learn this lesson the very hard way...I made so many mistakes and lost everything that mattered because of it. And now I’m just beginning to pick up the pieces of my life. I’m taking life one day at a time until I find forgiveness in myself and finally rebuild what has been lost...

First Post 2009!

Had a nice, long vacation back home. It's back to work again here in the urban jungle!

Photo Credit: Clipartguide.com

My Latest Find: Pon and Zi

A few weeks ago I went browsing on Youtube for one of Usher's songs. I found the song that I was looking for but the video was not of him. It was of these two cute characters - Pon and Zi. What struck me most were the statements they made. At my state that time, I could really relate to what these characters were saying. They just seem to express what I was feeling too, all my confusion, all my hurts.. Take a look at these pictures and maybe you'll understand...

Poem at 4:35

What Hurts Most

Thought what we had was a beginning
Not the beginning of the end
On the verge of discovering new feelings
Good things seemed to be growing
Suddenly reality comes crashing in
Everything coming all at once causing pain
Should have know it was wrong from the start
And I should never have let you inside my heart
Now all I feel is regret and pain
From promises you made in vain
What hurts the most, I believed everything you said
Too late to find out you were playing with my head
Because of you I again believed in fairy tales
And happy endings

In chocolates, roses, and pink-flowered dreams;
But now, all hopes are again dashed to pieces
All that’s left is me to deal with the brokenness;
On the outside people see me laugh and smile
But deep inside is a pain I cannot hide
Despite all that I will not let you see me cry
Maybe this is the end and I will say my goodbye…