Whenever someone asks me to describe myself, somehow I always find it hard to do so. Does this mean I don't really know myself? MAYBE. I know I am not alone in this matter. It always makes me think that when the subject is already about the self most people would shy away from the subject. This is very evident especially in school. Whenever students are tasked to do an essay about them they would groan and moan about it. Another example is during job interviews. The question tell about us about yourself or describe yourself is always being asked. How do we answer? Of course we only say desirable and favorable things about ourselves so that we would gain their approval. We even practice the dialogue so that it will come out right. Is this a manifestation that we truly and fully know ourselves?
Now why is it hard to talk about ourselves? I think one reason is the one i mentioned before. He does not himself that well. Another reason - most are afraid of revealing their true selves to others, for fear that if they show weakness it will be used against him. We may not notice it but, most of us wear "masks", (though not the literal "mask" that we put on)! This mask cannot be seen others, only those who know you very well will know if you are putting on a "mask" or an act/pretense/ to shield or hide your real self.
Though there some people who can easily answer when they are asked about things regarding themselves and their personalities. Some of them easily disclose their ideals . . sometimes they even say things that are better left confidential. Is this the manifestation of a person who truly knows himself inside and out? Actually I don't know. What is really the basis when we can already say that “I fully know myself" or " I know who I am", without any hesitation?
Well I believe everyday is a learning experience. It does not just take like 5, 20 years or even 40 years for us to be fully acquainted with our true selves. Each circumstance, every person we encounter and everything that we achieve helps us get to know our inner selves better each day.
November 5, 2007
November 4, 2007
Personality Test
Big Five Test Results |
| Extroversion (44%) moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and private. Friendliness (59%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense of your own individual development (martyr complex). Orderliness (85%) very high which suggests you are overly organized, neat, structured and restrained at the expense too often of flexibility, variety, spontaneity, and fun. Emotional Stability (26%) low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Openmindedness (46%) medium which suggests you are moderately intellectual, curious, and imaginative. |
personality tests by similarminds.com
September 10, 2007
August 9, 2007
Got My New Digi Cam!!!
I've been hankering for a digi cam for a long time now but my finances just didn't warrant it... But last week while looking around on ebay i saw this Kodak easyshare cam and decided it was too good to pass up. So i placed by bid.. and I WON!!! wow y first won item on ebay hehhehe. So this morning it finally arrived 9:30 via Air21. I can now enjoy taking pictures gorgeous panoramas and special occassions or just anything under the sun... hehe my Kodak EasyShare LS743!!!
Don't wonder if you can't see the cam in the pics posted coz its the one i used to take those haha!
June 29, 2007
Dealing with Depression
The past few days has been a very difficult time for me. I don't know if you can relate to the feeling like you're just standing on an abyss and with just one step you'll fall right over the edge... And i can't even sleep properly anymore or eat. When i do sleep, its only in a fitful doze and i will wake up in the middle of the night, just wishing the sun would come up soon and free me from the darkness... when i eat, a few tablespoons that after a eating i only feel like throwing up... Sometimes, i feel like the weight is just becoming too much but i don't want to sink into depression again... so i began browsing online for some helpful tips/articles that can help... The following paragraphs are lifted from www.allaboutlifechallenges.com. The last paragraph has been especially helpful for me...
Coping With Depression - Medical OptionsCoping with depression is possible and there are many options. Depression can sometimes be caused by a chemical imbalance and medications are often used to correct this imbalance. A physician can prescribe the appropriate medications or refer you to another doctor who is more knowledgeable. There are several antidepressants available and sometimes more than one medication may be suggested. Your physician may prescribe which medication to use based on several factors:
How has depression affected your activity patterns?
Have your eating patterns been affected?
How have your sleep patterns varied since the depression began?
Have your interest patterns changed?
Other components, such as anxiety, will also help determine which, if any, medication to use. Sometimes a trial and error method may be used to find the most effective medication for you which can often result in greater emotional distress.
Coping With Depression - Therapy OptionsThere are also therapy options for coping with depression, such as talking with a qualified counselor who can talk through problems with you, teach coping skills, and provide support systems. I went to a Christian therapist. At times, this was a challenge for me. He would tell me to look to my faith for answers and I wanted to scream. I was looking to my faith, but I was not finding the answers. Or perhaps, I was getting answers, but I wanted different ones! We were able to discuss circumstances and I learned how to cope in various situations. My depressed feelings began to lift and I began to cope with challenges in my life. I began finding strength in my faith.
Coping With Depression - Finding True Self Worth - A big means of coping with depression came through finding my true self worth. I had previously based my self worth on the approval of my friends and on my ability to perform in my job. When I could no longer fulfill my work responsibilities due to injury, I felt worthless. Over time, I began to realize that my true self worth does not come from within me. It comes from God-my Creator. God loves me. Through this tremendous love, I have once again found worth and significance in my life. He is my significance! 1 Thessalonians 2:12 says, "...walk worthy of God who calls you into His own kingdom and glory."
Coping With Depression - Medical OptionsCoping with depression is possible and there are many options. Depression can sometimes be caused by a chemical imbalance and medications are often used to correct this imbalance. A physician can prescribe the appropriate medications or refer you to another doctor who is more knowledgeable. There are several antidepressants available and sometimes more than one medication may be suggested. Your physician may prescribe which medication to use based on several factors:
How has depression affected your activity patterns?
Have your eating patterns been affected?
How have your sleep patterns varied since the depression began?
Have your interest patterns changed?
Other components, such as anxiety, will also help determine which, if any, medication to use. Sometimes a trial and error method may be used to find the most effective medication for you which can often result in greater emotional distress.
Coping With Depression - Therapy OptionsThere are also therapy options for coping with depression, such as talking with a qualified counselor who can talk through problems with you, teach coping skills, and provide support systems. I went to a Christian therapist. At times, this was a challenge for me. He would tell me to look to my faith for answers and I wanted to scream. I was looking to my faith, but I was not finding the answers. Or perhaps, I was getting answers, but I wanted different ones! We were able to discuss circumstances and I learned how to cope in various situations. My depressed feelings began to lift and I began to cope with challenges in my life. I began finding strength in my faith.
Coping With Depression - Finding True Self Worth - A big means of coping with depression came through finding my true self worth. I had previously based my self worth on the approval of my friends and on my ability to perform in my job. When I could no longer fulfill my work responsibilities due to injury, I felt worthless. Over time, I began to realize that my true self worth does not come from within me. It comes from God-my Creator. God loves me. Through this tremendous love, I have once again found worth and significance in my life. He is my significance! 1 Thessalonians 2:12 says, "...walk worthy of God who calls you into His own kingdom and glory."
June 20, 2007
Where To Belong?
Work has just started, i haven't even made a headway with the proofreading/editing that i have to do. Garbled thoughts are just running throuhg my head and I just have to write them down and make sense of them. So if anyone's reading this, just be patient...
Today is the 20th of June, and the day after tomorrow is going to be my birthday. Wow, im turning 25 then, it's kind of overwhelming ... mixed emotions of happy, anxious, sad, its hard to expalin. But really how am i supposed to feel? It's like i've been alive in this earth yet its always making me think, so far what have i achieved in my 25 years? Not much that's for sure. Somehow it feels like time if running our on me ... and its like everyhting is just so unstable at this time. A lot of changes is going to take place in a few weeks especially in my family..
My brother is getting married next month. This morning when i was on the jeepney on my way here it just sunk in that both my siblings will already have a family of their own... They'll have their own family circle, somewhere that they can belong for the rest of their life ... it just makes me wonder within myself "where does that leave me?" Just thinking about it makes me think and feel like a displaced waif. Like a fledgeling that must leave the nest and find her own...
Can you make sense of what I'm saying here? troubled thoughts are really hard to fathom. Maybe this is really what you call the quarter life crisis (QLC) as researched by my friend dexter. But i know it's not only me who's in this stage right now. I just hope the pieces fall in their right places soon, soon soon!!!!
Today is the 20th of June, and the day after tomorrow is going to be my birthday. Wow, im turning 25 then, it's kind of overwhelming ... mixed emotions of happy, anxious, sad, its hard to expalin. But really how am i supposed to feel? It's like i've been alive in this earth yet its always making me think, so far what have i achieved in my 25 years? Not much that's for sure. Somehow it feels like time if running our on me ... and its like everyhting is just so unstable at this time. A lot of changes is going to take place in a few weeks especially in my family..
My brother is getting married next month. This morning when i was on the jeepney on my way here it just sunk in that both my siblings will already have a family of their own... They'll have their own family circle, somewhere that they can belong for the rest of their life ... it just makes me wonder within myself "where does that leave me?" Just thinking about it makes me think and feel like a displaced waif. Like a fledgeling that must leave the nest and find her own...
Can you make sense of what I'm saying here? troubled thoughts are really hard to fathom. Maybe this is really what you call the quarter life crisis (QLC) as researched by my friend dexter. But i know it's not only me who's in this stage right now. I just hope the pieces fall in their right places soon, soon soon!!!!
March 26, 2007
Feels Like Home To Me
This song says all that I feel at this very moment ... It's all here . . .
Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light
Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way the back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
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